1 Year Ago Today...

One year ago today I was at UT hospital. I had just given birth to a tiny baby girl. She came at 3:08am, weighed 3lbs 9oz and was a little over 16in long. After months of waiting for what I thought would be the hardest day of my life it was finally here and just like that it was over! I didn't know what to expect when she came, Clint and I just held hands waiting to hear her cry and finally there it was the tiniest little sound. She was ok...well she was alive and breathing on her own. Thank you god! They even ask if I wanted to hold her. It was all really weird to me, here I was with this life changing thing happening to me and I had no emotion, I was so calm and had such peace . I know God was with me. After letting me see her and hold her,( or what they said was holding her) they rushed her away to the "NICU"... I went to my room and Clint went with her.

After hours of waiting for the Dr.'s to let me up I finally got to really see her. Clint had showed me some pictures the nurses had taken of her and I watched what he had video taped so I was prepared. I just kept saying "I can't believe she has bleach blond curly hair!" I always wanted a baby with hair, I just never expected her to have so much. Clint wheeled me to the "NICU" and finally there she was...she was so tiny, and her little legs were bent, she was bruised and they wouldn't even let me hold her. So there I stood with my hands through the holes of the incubator touching her hair, rubbing her head, holding her hand. She was so cute and they had an orange bow in her hair...my favorite color!!!

After all this had happened I still had no emotion, I couldn't even bring myself to pray all I could do was say thank you over and over again nothing else would come out...I would try but all I needed to say was "Thank You God...Thank You!"

We have been blessed with our very own little miracle, God has chose us to take care of this very special little girl. Through all this I have never questioned God about his plans only wondered with excitement for what he has in store for us. He had faith in me when he gave me Ella and wanted me to trust in him and for that I have been rewarded... Rewarded with "Ella Faith"

Melissa